Change…..

” There is a certain relief in change, even though it be from bad to worse! As I have often found in travelling in a stagecoach, that it is often a comfort to shift one’s position, and be bruised in a new place. “
– Washington Irving

Its my life ….. is it ?

You are 22 years old . . .

or 274 months old
or 1189 weeks old
or 8328 days old
or 199872 hours old
or 11992343 minutes old
or 719540588 seconds old

And, your next birthday is in:
72 days 11 hrs 37 mins 52 secs …..and counting down …..

That was the age calculator helping me find out exactly for how long I have been born. Now this is probably the last thing u want to do when u r hopelessly lost trying to figure out things that r happening in ur life. Just when u thought u had it all firgured out , just when u thought u were in control of urself , ur present ….and hopefully the future….u just awaken to c urself in probably the last place u wana b , doing something u didn’t even wana give a go at ……

It just sparks this one question ……… what do I actually wana do ? How I wish i was smart enough to figure out this one!

Age 5 …..what do u wana b ? wana become a big boy

Age 10 ….. "…… wana b a mechanic ( he gets to ride all kinda bikes …)

Age 15 ……"….. wana b an astronaut ( had learnt man was on the moon )

Age 18 ……"….. wana b a mechanical engineer

Age 23 ……. "Bachelors in Computer Science Engineering" ………….. into an IT company …..blogging …..

What went wrong ? and where ? When were the choices made …..did i have one ?? When u sit back and think abt the chain of events that linked one another down from where it all started to where u r now ….and probably where u r heading , u r left with no choice but to rationalize how u were reacting to every situation u were put into, just trying to fit into the situation and getting the most of it ….. hoping u had made the best possible decision at that moment.

Feels terribly odd to realise u have arrived at an all new place and figure out later that its somewhere  u just didnt wana b …..

Feel so outa place

Chapter Two…..

Just returned after watching the play “Chapter Two” by Evam. It was my first play and to just say it was good wud b an understatement !!!!

I don’t know if its sheer excitement of witnessing “pure acting” for the first time, or the play itself, I took some time to get over it and to get outa that frame of mind. Infact I was so not myself that I remember answering swetha involuntarily…even better….she shook hands with me congratulating me to have watched such a good play for my first , and I give her my hand with my fingers pointing to the ground !!!!!!!!!!!!! If I remember , it was the weakest handshake ever !!! I felt like Brian Herzilinger from the documentary “ My Date with Drew”…..

I could say without a doubt that my senses were delighted!! I wouldn’t use inappropriate adjectives or superlatives to describe the play, and neither wud I wana comment on the artists cos its my first…. Wud just wana say ….”Go watch it” ….

I am afraid if that cud b possible, cos it was the last show for the day and the group was heading back to Chennai the same night….

At the end of it , after all the circus I did to make it on time (ok ok ……I got in atleast !! ) … it was worth it all … thank u haas , for asking me to join in and also for picking up the tickets on our behalf , aparna for waiting with the tickets , swetha and anath for the gud time ( well the handshake too !! swetha ….), kittu for the short rip off we had heading bak home !!! ….. Thank u all ….had a great time !!!